Just a quick morning blog!
1. I've been up all night again. I don't know why I do this to myself.
2. Ladyfest kicks off tonight with a potluck dinner. I'm kind of nervous to go but excited at the same time. Some of my photos will be on display!
3. I started another blog (http://theamature-kelcie.blogspot.com/) that will document this awesome new idea I had.
4. We're out of boxes and tape and we still have a shit ton of stuff to pack up and only FOUR more days to do it all. Thank god my mom will be going on vacation though because I have to volunteer for Ladyfest all week and I've already done ALL the rest of the packing BY MYSELF! Lol.
5. We have fleas. Dammit. So I'm going to go give Zacky and Kitten (Aussie Shep and regular ol' kitten) a bath after this. I don't know what I'm going to do about Gia (rabbit). Then we have to bug bomb and shampoo the carpets.
Blah! So much to do still, so little time. And money.
Sorry. I'm just not in that great of a mood. Part sleep deprivation, part stress, part knowing that I have to spend my birthday moving with just my 60 year old mother as help.
It always gets worse before it gets better though, right?
Good things come to those who wait?
Patience is a virtue?
No pain, no gain?
And all those other types of optimistic sayings.
Ok, I'm gunna go chug another cup of coffee and give my fur-babies a bath.
I'll try and blog again tonight after I get done volunteering or at the very latest sometime tomorrow.
Peace!
-Kelcie
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
My last week as a teenager.
God I feel so old. This is going to be my last week as a teenager. Now I really have to grow up. And I don't wanna dammit! Well, at least a little part of me doesn't. Lol. But it's not going to be all that bad turning 20. On the bright side, now starts the count down until I can drink...legally. Lol. And I've decided that I'm going to go ahead and drink on my birthday this year and then quit until my 21st birthday. That way my tolerance will be nice and low and it won't cost me an arm and a leg to go out and get drunk. Lol. Of course after that I'm not going to go back to drinking like I used to but I hope by then I'll be able to be a more responsible drinker.
Psh, yea, we'll see.
It's so strange to think that ten years ago I was only ten and in the 5th grade. I think my favorite memory from back then (and one of the very few I remember, lol) is the day my mom asked me if I wanted a horse. Just out of nowhere. I was so surprised because usually it's the kids that are supposed to ask the parents if they can have a pony and quite frankly, it had never occurred to me to ask. But I said sure. And about two weeks later I had my very own horse! Her name was Thumper and she was the best thing to ever happen to me. But I think I'll save her story for another blog.
Another thing I remember about being ten is how sad it was to graduate from my beloved elementary school. Parkview was pretty much the only time I ever liked school. The teachers actually cared about you, I did well in class, they always had amazing artist from different cultures come and work with us, there was all sorts of awesome fund raisers and school activities, and all sorts of other things I loved. I think that if middle and high school were more like elementary school then we'd definitely be producing a higher percent of graduates that are not only nicer human beings but are smarter and more ambitious. Seriously. I remember having so many hopes and dreams and enthusiasm when I was little and I just always had that feeling that I could do and be anything I wanted and no one could stop me and that I was going to change the world. But over these past ten years unfortunate circumstances and other peoples negative energy has drained almost all my will to hold onto my hopes and dreams.
So, ten years ago that's where I was. And we've pretty much covered where I am now. Overweight, out of shape, unhappy with life and generally depressed, I've just gotten my G.E.D. and I'm trying desperately to get into the local technical college, I'm poor, jobless, and living with my mother, and most importantly, I'm no longer have any horses.
But like I've said before, I'm starting to change all that.
Now, let's talk ten years from now.
I'll be (oh dear god) 30. I hope to be fit and healthy, at least engaged if not already married (depending on if they've changed the laws by then. Which they better have.) and starting a family, I hope to have acquired a masters degree in something, to have started a successful career, have become a well established local artist, and to have gotten back into riding horses again.
That's kind of my skeleton plan. But we'll see what happens. A billion different things can happen in ten years and who knows what the outcome will be. But whatever happens, if nothing more I hope to have made some significant positive changes and I hope to finally be in a place mentally and emotionally where I'm happy with myself.
Well, I better get back to packing and cleaning. Only a little over a week until we get to move! Yay!
Peace!
-Kelcie
Psh, yea, we'll see.
It's so strange to think that ten years ago I was only ten and in the 5th grade. I think my favorite memory from back then (and one of the very few I remember, lol) is the day my mom asked me if I wanted a horse. Just out of nowhere. I was so surprised because usually it's the kids that are supposed to ask the parents if they can have a pony and quite frankly, it had never occurred to me to ask. But I said sure. And about two weeks later I had my very own horse! Her name was Thumper and she was the best thing to ever happen to me. But I think I'll save her story for another blog.
Another thing I remember about being ten is how sad it was to graduate from my beloved elementary school. Parkview was pretty much the only time I ever liked school. The teachers actually cared about you, I did well in class, they always had amazing artist from different cultures come and work with us, there was all sorts of awesome fund raisers and school activities, and all sorts of other things I loved. I think that if middle and high school were more like elementary school then we'd definitely be producing a higher percent of graduates that are not only nicer human beings but are smarter and more ambitious. Seriously. I remember having so many hopes and dreams and enthusiasm when I was little and I just always had that feeling that I could do and be anything I wanted and no one could stop me and that I was going to change the world. But over these past ten years unfortunate circumstances and other peoples negative energy has drained almost all my will to hold onto my hopes and dreams.
So, ten years ago that's where I was. And we've pretty much covered where I am now. Overweight, out of shape, unhappy with life and generally depressed, I've just gotten my G.E.D. and I'm trying desperately to get into the local technical college, I'm poor, jobless, and living with my mother, and most importantly, I'm no longer have any horses.
But like I've said before, I'm starting to change all that.
Now, let's talk ten years from now.
I'll be (oh dear god) 30. I hope to be fit and healthy, at least engaged if not already married (depending on if they've changed the laws by then. Which they better have.) and starting a family, I hope to have acquired a masters degree in something, to have started a successful career, have become a well established local artist, and to have gotten back into riding horses again.
That's kind of my skeleton plan. But we'll see what happens. A billion different things can happen in ten years and who knows what the outcome will be. But whatever happens, if nothing more I hope to have made some significant positive changes and I hope to finally be in a place mentally and emotionally where I'm happy with myself.
Well, I better get back to packing and cleaning. Only a little over a week until we get to move! Yay!
Peace!
-Kelcie
Saturday, June 20, 2009
New Moon Rising
Ok, so, I know I epically fail when it comes to daily postings but, I have a really good excuse! And it's not like anyone is reading this yet anyways. Lol. But I'm in the process of moving and trying to get rid of a whole bunch of stuff so things have been kind of stressful and hectic around here.
But I'm here now and I was just on my Myspace and decided to check my horoscope really quick. Now astrology is about as close as I get to believing in anything religious or other worldly. I don't believe in it that heavily mind you and although they're hit and miss, most of the time my horoscopes actually relate somehow. If anything they at least sort of inspire me and make me take time to think and reflect upon the day ahead.
So I just read my horoscope and it says:
'It's like your own personal New Year's Day and even if you don't throw a party, it's still a good idea to sit down and write a list of resolutions. Taking this task seriously can be of immense help in the days and weeks ahead, for this exercise focuses your attention on what's most important to you while the New Moon in your sign plants the seeds of your intentions in fertile ground.'
Now how I interpret this is that since I'm moving and I need to get a ton of shit done besides all the stuff I was already trying to do in my regular life, that perhaps I need to sit down, re-prioritize, map out a plan for the next few months, and stick to it 100%.
So, that's what I'm going to do.
I'm usually a TERRIBLE procrastinator. I think it's due mostly to my health and weight issues and I read somewhere that it's part of depression. But we'll get into that another day.
But anyways, I think that doing this will really help and make a difference and I think it'll be a fun personal challenge and will also help build some self confidence.
So here's my list of things I'd like to get done within the next week or so.
In other news, tomorrow I'll be turning in some of my photos to be exhibited at this years Ladyfest. I'm super stoked! This is my first time submitting my art and I'm kind of nervous but mostly excited. I've been putting on a front telling everyone things like 'Eh, fuck em if they don't like it or don't get it. That's why the call it art!' But really I just want everyone to genuinely like it. Not even love it but to just think, 'wow, that's really pretty' or something like that. Lol. But either way, if they love it or hate it, all I can do is learn from this experience and improve for next time. Which will be when I submit a photo to the Northwest Washington Fair. And one way I'll know how I can improve all ready is by having my photo matted. Lol. Right now I'm too poor to mat or frame my photos but I guess that's fine according to the Ladyfest coordinators. And even though I can only submit one photo to the fair as opposed to the 15 I'm submitting to Ladyfest, I'm actually even more excited for it because they REALLY judge your photo and give out ribbons and cash prizes. I don't really care about the money so much but dammit, I want at least a blue if not a purple (which is like grand champion I think) ribbon! Lol.
Another thing that's going on is that I'm volunteering for Ladyfest as well. So far I've only painted a small celling but I plan on doing much more this week. I felt really bad though because I'm afraid I didn't do that good of a job on the celling and I'm nervous that secretly the lady hated me. Lol. Not like really hated me but like, after I finished I was like 'Would you like me to fix anything before I leave?' And she kind of gave it a quick look over and was like 'Um, no that's ok. You did a good job and you can go.' Then I asked her where I should rinse out the paint brushes and where to put everything and she quickly told me to leave everything and that I did such a good job that I could just go and she would clean up for me. Even though I still had another 1 1/2 hrs I was supposed to be there. And I mean, she knew it was the first time I've ever painted anything like that and I'm sure she was just trying to be nice and I'm sure she really did appreciate that I had at least tried and done my best but it just felt to me like she wanted to get me out of there so she could hurry up and fix all my mistakes and go home. Lol. I don't know, it's probably just my insecurities and anxiety that make me think these things but it still got to my self-esteem because when I'm doing things for others I always want to do a great job. And it's not like I'm trying to be an over acheiver or that I need the attention or anything but when you're volunteering and volunteering for something that's really important like this then there's an added pressure to do the best you can. I and I just felt like I didn't. But like I said about my photos, all I can do is learn and improve. And I have all this week to redeem myself. I'd just like to be more of a help then a hindrance. Lol.
Other then that there's nothing more really worth writing about just yet.
Plus my hands are starting to cramp.
*Side note: Don't you fucking hate it when you can't figure out what that weird smell is? UGH!*
Peace!
-Kelcie
But I'm here now and I was just on my Myspace and decided to check my horoscope really quick. Now astrology is about as close as I get to believing in anything religious or other worldly. I don't believe in it that heavily mind you and although they're hit and miss, most of the time my horoscopes actually relate somehow. If anything they at least sort of inspire me and make me take time to think and reflect upon the day ahead.
So I just read my horoscope and it says:
'It's like your own personal New Year's Day and even if you don't throw a party, it's still a good idea to sit down and write a list of resolutions. Taking this task seriously can be of immense help in the days and weeks ahead, for this exercise focuses your attention on what's most important to you while the New Moon in your sign plants the seeds of your intentions in fertile ground.'
Now how I interpret this is that since I'm moving and I need to get a ton of shit done besides all the stuff I was already trying to do in my regular life, that perhaps I need to sit down, re-prioritize, map out a plan for the next few months, and stick to it 100%.
So, that's what I'm going to do.
I'm usually a TERRIBLE procrastinator. I think it's due mostly to my health and weight issues and I read somewhere that it's part of depression. But we'll get into that another day.
But anyways, I think that doing this will really help and make a difference and I think it'll be a fun personal challenge and will also help build some self confidence.
So here's my list of things I'd like to get done within the next week or so.
- Finish packing my room.
- Finish packing the kitchen.
- Finish packing the dining/living room.
- Pack up mom's room.
- Vacuum and shampoo all the carpets with a Rug Doctor.
- Set off bug bombs.
- Get all the extra things we don't want sold on Craig's List.
- Buy flea treatments for the animals.
- Give Zacky a bath.
- Turn in our notice.
In other news, tomorrow I'll be turning in some of my photos to be exhibited at this years Ladyfest. I'm super stoked! This is my first time submitting my art and I'm kind of nervous but mostly excited. I've been putting on a front telling everyone things like 'Eh, fuck em if they don't like it or don't get it. That's why the call it art!' But really I just want everyone to genuinely like it. Not even love it but to just think, 'wow, that's really pretty' or something like that. Lol. But either way, if they love it or hate it, all I can do is learn from this experience and improve for next time. Which will be when I submit a photo to the Northwest Washington Fair. And one way I'll know how I can improve all ready is by having my photo matted. Lol. Right now I'm too poor to mat or frame my photos but I guess that's fine according to the Ladyfest coordinators. And even though I can only submit one photo to the fair as opposed to the 15 I'm submitting to Ladyfest, I'm actually even more excited for it because they REALLY judge your photo and give out ribbons and cash prizes. I don't really care about the money so much but dammit, I want at least a blue if not a purple (which is like grand champion I think) ribbon! Lol.
Another thing that's going on is that I'm volunteering for Ladyfest as well. So far I've only painted a small celling but I plan on doing much more this week. I felt really bad though because I'm afraid I didn't do that good of a job on the celling and I'm nervous that secretly the lady hated me. Lol. Not like really hated me but like, after I finished I was like 'Would you like me to fix anything before I leave?' And she kind of gave it a quick look over and was like 'Um, no that's ok. You did a good job and you can go.' Then I asked her where I should rinse out the paint brushes and where to put everything and she quickly told me to leave everything and that I did such a good job that I could just go and she would clean up for me. Even though I still had another 1 1/2 hrs I was supposed to be there. And I mean, she knew it was the first time I've ever painted anything like that and I'm sure she was just trying to be nice and I'm sure she really did appreciate that I had at least tried and done my best but it just felt to me like she wanted to get me out of there so she could hurry up and fix all my mistakes and go home. Lol. I don't know, it's probably just my insecurities and anxiety that make me think these things but it still got to my self-esteem because when I'm doing things for others I always want to do a great job. And it's not like I'm trying to be an over acheiver or that I need the attention or anything but when you're volunteering and volunteering for something that's really important like this then there's an added pressure to do the best you can. I and I just felt like I didn't. But like I said about my photos, all I can do is learn and improve. And I have all this week to redeem myself. I'd just like to be more of a help then a hindrance. Lol.
Other then that there's nothing more really worth writing about just yet.
Plus my hands are starting to cramp.
*Side note: Don't you fucking hate it when you can't figure out what that weird smell is? UGH!*
Peace!
-Kelcie
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Complete Transformation.
I have goals. And dreams. But, I'm too indecisive, timid, shy, and I worry far too much to be able to make those first few steps towards achieving them. It's something I'm working on though. Starting today.
It's 11 days until my twentieth birthday. June 29th I'll officially be two decades old. And I am unhappy, and have been for quite some time. And I'm sick of sitting around and waiting for someone or something to help me. I'm sick of watching the world pass me by and having my insecurities, fears, and anxiety hold be back. I'm sick of being average. And yes, I realize how grossly cliche I sound right now but, I can't help it. And please understand, this is not meant to be some sort of pity party or anything pathetically dramatic like that. I simply wish to share with others what will hopefully be my complete mental, physical, and emotional transformation over these next few years. Hopefully I'll be understood. Hopefully people can relate. But more so, hopefully I'll inspire other unhappy, or otherwise, people to venture out and do what they need to do to better their own lives.
So now what?
Well, I suppose in order to begin my journey I should asses where I'm currently at.
Making a list of everything I dislike about myself sounds rather depressing and extremely self-loathing, I know. But I think it's important that in order to fix my faults I first need to acknowledge them.
Feel free to skip ahead. This isn't going to be pretty. Lol.
Let's start with the easiest one shall we?
What I'd like to change about myself physically:
The goal: By June of next year I'd like to have lost at least 50lbs if not more and then re-evaluate and set my goals for the year after that.
2. The problem: Pizza, chips, soda, candy, pasta, burgers, fries. If it's junk food, I love it. And I binge on it. I eat even when I'm not hungry, usually when I'm bored, and especially when I'm upset. I don't eat a lot of fruit and rarely any vegetables and I don't consume nearly enough water.
The goal: I'd like to follow the recommended menu plan suggested for me based on my height, weight, B.M.I., and amount of daily exercise provided by http://www.mypyramidtracker.gov/planner/.
3. The problem: Easy, I don't exercise. At all. I often get fatigued quickly by walking short distances and I can't run more then a block before becoming completely out of breath.
The goal: By June of next year I'd like to be able to run at least a mile, if not more, with ease, be able to do 50+ crunches; push-ups; pull-ups; and curls, I'd like to be able to lift 30lb+ weights and be able to bench 90lb+. I would also like to be fit enough to try out for the Bellingham Roller Betties roller derby team and start participating in inter mural sports.
4. The problem: I can drink excess (and when I say excess I mean half a bottle of Bacardi 151 or 14+ beers) without getting sick or blacking out and if I'm drinking I can easily go through about two packs of cigarettes a night and over a half a pack a day when I'm sober. There is a long, strong line of alcoholism in my family and if I don't stop soon then I know that I WILL end up an alcoholic.
The goal: The day after my 20th birthday I plan on quitting cold turkey forever. I've done it before, going 6 months without smoking and 4 months without drinking, so I know I can do it. It's just a matter of staying strong and not giving in to peer pressure.
5. The problem: I don't have a regular sleep schedule. I will often stay up for 24+ hours, then sleep 12+, stay up again all night, sleep for 5, stay up for 12, etc. until I'm able to sleep and wake at decent hours. But it never lasts long before I'm sleeping and waking different hours each day again. I know it's not healthy and it makes me drained and irritable all the time. Plus I end up missing out on a lot of things.
The goal: To be able to get to sleep between 9-11 P.M. and be able to wake up between 5-7 A.M. feeling well rested and having lots of energy.
6. The problem: My hair is very long but has not been cut or even trimmed in about five years. So as you can imagine, I have horrible split ends. Also, my hair is naturally curly so it's extremely frizzy because it's not healthy. And lately I've noticed that it's becoming thinner most likely due to an unhealthy diet and stress. My skin, surprisingly enough, has never had bad acne but I have a lot of blackheads that I can't seem to get rid of. And my nails are fine for the most part except for the fact that when I let them grow out they curl at the corners.
The goal: I'd like to get skinny enough to be able to sport a shorter hair cut and have it be dyed back to blond. (Think Meg Ryan mid-90's) I'd like for it to be think, soft, shiny, and healthy again. As for my skin, I'd like to eliminate my blackheads and keep my skin soft and blemish free. And when it comes to my nails, I'm not sure if there's anything I can really do but I plan on researching it more. I don't want fake nails and I don't want super long nails but I'd like them to look more feminine.
7. The problem: My teeth have always been horrible due simply to genetics. Both my mother and father have horrible teeth also. But I've let them go over the years and smoking, drinking, and doing drugs has made them even more worse. They're yellow, crooked, and I know I have cavities. Also, I had a root canal a few years back and only got a semi-permanent filling that has worn almost completely away over the years that desperately needs to be fixed.
The goal: To start taking better care of my teeth and start brushing and flossing at least three times a day as recommended. I'd also like to get braces before I get too much older, get my cavities and root canal fixed, and afterwards get the whole lot whitened.
8. The problem: I have pretty bad vision including astigmatism in one of my eyes. I haven't had an eye exam in about 5 years and I've had my glasses for the same time. Suffice to say, my vision has changed and worsened since then and I desperately need new glasses as these ones are not only giving me a head ache because they are no longer the right prescription, but they have been broken for the past 3 years. And when I say broken I mean scratched lenses, bent frame, missing ear cushions, and being taped AND sewn together. Yea, pretty ghetto. Lol.
The goal: To have an eye exam and get a new pair of glasses and possibly some contacts.
9. The problem: Ok, don't worry, I promise I won't gross you out and I'll keep it short. Lol. But I've always had an irregular period, going four weeks instead of three, but lately I've missed a few altogether and when I do have them, they're pretty light, but I spot for a long time before and afterwards.
The goal: To find a gynecologist and find out if it's doing this because of poor health and stress/depression or if it's more serious.
10. The problem: I have exercise induced asthma that's been worsened by my smoking and I'm not taking any medication for it.
The solution: I'd like to finally get an inhaler and be able to start exercising without worrying about dying. Lol.
Ok, so, that's a pretty good start right?
Well, I'm tired of writing and I'm sure you're tired of reading about my problems so I'll call it quits for today.
If you have read this, then I sincerely appreciate it. And any advice or support would be warmly welcomed and even more appreciated!
I'd like to try and post daily along with weekly or monthly pictures of my progress. So stick around, follow, and check back tomorrow if you want to hear more about my problems. Lol.
Peace!
-Kelcie
It's 11 days until my twentieth birthday. June 29th I'll officially be two decades old. And I am unhappy, and have been for quite some time. And I'm sick of sitting around and waiting for someone or something to help me. I'm sick of watching the world pass me by and having my insecurities, fears, and anxiety hold be back. I'm sick of being average. And yes, I realize how grossly cliche I sound right now but, I can't help it. And please understand, this is not meant to be some sort of pity party or anything pathetically dramatic like that. I simply wish to share with others what will hopefully be my complete mental, physical, and emotional transformation over these next few years. Hopefully I'll be understood. Hopefully people can relate. But more so, hopefully I'll inspire other unhappy, or otherwise, people to venture out and do what they need to do to better their own lives.
So now what?
Well, I suppose in order to begin my journey I should asses where I'm currently at.
Making a list of everything I dislike about myself sounds rather depressing and extremely self-loathing, I know. But I think it's important that in order to fix my faults I first need to acknowledge them.
Feel free to skip ahead. This isn't going to be pretty. Lol.
Let's start with the easiest one shall we?
What I'd like to change about myself physically:
- My weight.
- My eating habits.
- My exercise routine.
- To stop drinking and smoking.
- My sleep schedule.
- My skin, hair, and fingernail conditions.
- My teeth.
- My eyes.
- My menstrual cycle.
- My asthma.
The goal: By June of next year I'd like to have lost at least 50lbs if not more and then re-evaluate and set my goals for the year after that.
2. The problem: Pizza, chips, soda, candy, pasta, burgers, fries. If it's junk food, I love it. And I binge on it. I eat even when I'm not hungry, usually when I'm bored, and especially when I'm upset. I don't eat a lot of fruit and rarely any vegetables and I don't consume nearly enough water.
The goal: I'd like to follow the recommended menu plan suggested for me based on my height, weight, B.M.I., and amount of daily exercise provided by http://www.mypyramidtracker.gov/planner/.
3. The problem: Easy, I don't exercise. At all. I often get fatigued quickly by walking short distances and I can't run more then a block before becoming completely out of breath.
The goal: By June of next year I'd like to be able to run at least a mile, if not more, with ease, be able to do 50+ crunches; push-ups; pull-ups; and curls, I'd like to be able to lift 30lb+ weights and be able to bench 90lb+. I would also like to be fit enough to try out for the Bellingham Roller Betties roller derby team and start participating in inter mural sports.
4. The problem: I can drink excess (and when I say excess I mean half a bottle of Bacardi 151 or 14+ beers) without getting sick or blacking out and if I'm drinking I can easily go through about two packs of cigarettes a night and over a half a pack a day when I'm sober. There is a long, strong line of alcoholism in my family and if I don't stop soon then I know that I WILL end up an alcoholic.
The goal: The day after my 20th birthday I plan on quitting cold turkey forever. I've done it before, going 6 months without smoking and 4 months without drinking, so I know I can do it. It's just a matter of staying strong and not giving in to peer pressure.
5. The problem: I don't have a regular sleep schedule. I will often stay up for 24+ hours, then sleep 12+, stay up again all night, sleep for 5, stay up for 12, etc. until I'm able to sleep and wake at decent hours. But it never lasts long before I'm sleeping and waking different hours each day again. I know it's not healthy and it makes me drained and irritable all the time. Plus I end up missing out on a lot of things.
The goal: To be able to get to sleep between 9-11 P.M. and be able to wake up between 5-7 A.M. feeling well rested and having lots of energy.
6. The problem: My hair is very long but has not been cut or even trimmed in about five years. So as you can imagine, I have horrible split ends. Also, my hair is naturally curly so it's extremely frizzy because it's not healthy. And lately I've noticed that it's becoming thinner most likely due to an unhealthy diet and stress. My skin, surprisingly enough, has never had bad acne but I have a lot of blackheads that I can't seem to get rid of. And my nails are fine for the most part except for the fact that when I let them grow out they curl at the corners.
The goal: I'd like to get skinny enough to be able to sport a shorter hair cut and have it be dyed back to blond. (Think Meg Ryan mid-90's) I'd like for it to be think, soft, shiny, and healthy again. As for my skin, I'd like to eliminate my blackheads and keep my skin soft and blemish free. And when it comes to my nails, I'm not sure if there's anything I can really do but I plan on researching it more. I don't want fake nails and I don't want super long nails but I'd like them to look more feminine.
7. The problem: My teeth have always been horrible due simply to genetics. Both my mother and father have horrible teeth also. But I've let them go over the years and smoking, drinking, and doing drugs has made them even more worse. They're yellow, crooked, and I know I have cavities. Also, I had a root canal a few years back and only got a semi-permanent filling that has worn almost completely away over the years that desperately needs to be fixed.
The goal: To start taking better care of my teeth and start brushing and flossing at least three times a day as recommended. I'd also like to get braces before I get too much older, get my cavities and root canal fixed, and afterwards get the whole lot whitened.
8. The problem: I have pretty bad vision including astigmatism in one of my eyes. I haven't had an eye exam in about 5 years and I've had my glasses for the same time. Suffice to say, my vision has changed and worsened since then and I desperately need new glasses as these ones are not only giving me a head ache because they are no longer the right prescription, but they have been broken for the past 3 years. And when I say broken I mean scratched lenses, bent frame, missing ear cushions, and being taped AND sewn together. Yea, pretty ghetto. Lol.
The goal: To have an eye exam and get a new pair of glasses and possibly some contacts.
9. The problem: Ok, don't worry, I promise I won't gross you out and I'll keep it short. Lol. But I've always had an irregular period, going four weeks instead of three, but lately I've missed a few altogether and when I do have them, they're pretty light, but I spot for a long time before and afterwards.
The goal: To find a gynecologist and find out if it's doing this because of poor health and stress/depression or if it's more serious.
10. The problem: I have exercise induced asthma that's been worsened by my smoking and I'm not taking any medication for it.
The solution: I'd like to finally get an inhaler and be able to start exercising without worrying about dying. Lol.
Ok, so, that's a pretty good start right?
Well, I'm tired of writing and I'm sure you're tired of reading about my problems so I'll call it quits for today.
If you have read this, then I sincerely appreciate it. And any advice or support would be warmly welcomed and even more appreciated!
I'd like to try and post daily along with weekly or monthly pictures of my progress. So stick around, follow, and check back tomorrow if you want to hear more about my problems. Lol.
Peace!
-Kelcie
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